Game plan

Finally! Seeing a light at the end of the tunnel.

Renny has been doing well with feedings, so the plan is to see how she dose over the weekend, have her sleep study done Sunday  (she has been dstating ) and take her home on Monday.

Keep the prayers and good vibes coming please!

NICU day 14

So, after being in the NICU for 14 days we are finally starting to see our baby take full bottles. This is in part thanks to a few nurses who said oh hey gonna change this nipple and see what happens. It was magicial.

We are currently at odds with one doctor on the care team, just dont care too much for her bedside manner and our interactions.  However we have an appointment with a social worker tomorrow and a call into the patient advocate as well gonna try and get them to get this discharge moving.  She would do much better at home with us.

Keep the prayers coming though, because  the way it was explained to us by an awesome nurse is that she needs to take all of her feeds ( 8) completly by mouth for 24 hours, then they will remove the NG tube, after that she needs to continue to take her feeds for another 24 hours before discharge.

Keep the prayers because we know she can take at least 3 feeds in 24 hours now. So pray send wishes good vibes etc that she says ohhh yea this is what I need to do.

She is such a joy, looks just like her big sister.

Serenity! 10/5/16

 So as with my last pregnancy, this one ended with a huge bang.  After weeks and weeks of complications and low amniotic fluid, steroids to help the baby's lungs, and 8 hospital visits and admissions later.  I finally got my wish the day after I turned 30 years old.   I went into Maternal Fetal Medicine for my weekly appointment.  Unlike my pregnancy with Espy, I felt okay that day I had a headache, I was swollen, and had high BP.  This was the norm for me since about 30 weeks so I thought eh, they won't deliver me with just all of that.  Well that day was also my 34 week Ultrasound and the plan was with all of the issues I was having, if something happened to me or her we would go ahead and deliver.  Well, all was going as planned until  I asked the tech about her fluid level and she said "Hardly anything there" I thought hmmm.. She then said yeah the blood flow to the brain and cord were showing signs of hard to get for lack of a better term.   So she went quickly to show the ultrasound to the specialist who like me thought " Oh she is good" Thank God for the tech saying
" No, she isn't you need to look at this" Minutes and minutes pass and then she comes in with the news " So the plan is to deliver you today"   Me- " FINALLY!"  So we begin the process of now trying to find emergency care for Espy all while processing the fact that  I am about to have another C-section. This delivery wasn't as rushed as Espy's but it was still hasty, Dr. Gordon dosen't play around.  My diagnosis before delivery? You guessed it Preeclampsia for the second time, as well as intrauterine growth restriction and the baby had abnormal wave patterns in her ultrasounds.

This delivery was kinda special for me though because not only did I have the doctor that I loved performing everything, my primary midwife Irma came in and told me, " I am going to be with you the whole time" and that meant the world to me.  So we were hasty but not super rushed I felt more at ease with the whole process.  So fastfoward to the operating room, and I go in and its about 11 AM and by 11:23 I got this:

                                           Serenity Eulalia Grace Lozano   4Lbs 10Oz ( 1oz shy of Espy)
                                              17.25 inches. 



Now, by rule of the hospital any baby born under 35 weeks was automatically admitted to the NICU.
So knowing this I knew that she would be there and since I had to be hooked up to magnesium for 24 hours I was not going to be able to see her until the next day, this broke my heart but I knew it had to be done and prayed for a short stay in the NICU for my baby girl.

Serenity was born without any complications however; my 10 day old baby is still stuck in the NICU why? Becuase she won't drink a bottle, she will breast feed very well, but not take a bottle at all.  So please keep praying for my girl. She is doing marvelous otherwise.

Last post was 7 months ago WOW a lot has changed

 Hi!

Since you last heard from me, I have started a new job teaching second grade. I work at a local charter school. Its been a really interesting time and experience.

My daughter Esperanza is going to be a year old on Saturday, where the heck did all of the time GO???

Life has been fun, we moved into a 2 bedroom apartment and all and all are really happy.


Also:

Baby Lozano #2 Due 11/11 :) What a ride ya'll

So I am back to  tons of docs appts. Visits with Maternal Fetal medicine.

5 months ... Time flies

 Wow my little darling is 5 months old.  Good Lord! ( No really, Good Lord) without him this blessing NEVER would have happened. 

Esperanza is just a joy in my life.  I don't think anything ever will compare to when I had her finally in my arms.   She is full of energy, attitude, love and just enough sass LOL to just brighten up anybody's day. 

What else has happened? Not too much We've got a relationship with the in laws and Espy knows all of her grandparents.  God is good. Now we are just focusing on staying ahead financially and looking for a slightly bigger place for our family of 7.

My Reaction to the SCOTUS decsion

  I need to get my feelings about the recent SCOTUS ruling on same sex marriage out in the open.  I am not even going to get into the discussion of whether it is right or wrong but I do want to share my opinion.

I am overjoyed for this ruling I think it was a good step in the right direction for tolerance, not acceptance but tolerance.   Many of you don't know this about me but I am an ordained minister and have been since 2011. I personally don't subscribe to a specific religion so when I was ordained I decided that I am going to minister as God does by loving everyone and being tolerant of everyone.

  This does not mean I am supporting the lifestyle you are living.   For instance  there are people in this world that chose to have drugs in their every day life.  Do I agree with the lifestyle? No, but I don't shun people for it either.    Some people chose to live in a house where they don't have a voice on certain matters when it comes to the relationship between them and their partner, I don't agree with that either but I don't and won't judge someone for doing so.  I can disagree with your lifestyle choices and love you just the same.  

 From a biblical standpoint God is the only love that is ever "unconditional"  and come on America if there is one part of the bible to take "Literally" its God's love!   I've said this before, there aren't any footnotes, asterisks, parentheses, end notes or anything in the bible when God speaks on Love or any other matter.  The bible does not say "Love each other as I have loved you *** Unless they happen to live a lifestyle or do things that you personally don't agree with***   ( Unless they drink) ** Unless they are LGBT** (
 Unless they are pretty) *** Unless they allow you to abuse them****   ** Unless they have an addiction((  Unless they don't think I exist)   I could go on forever

    It just simply says Love each other as I have loved you.  


I honestly understand the opponents and the supporters  of this issue. I Get it!  Change is really hard, its something  that certain parts of America do not handle well, but it is what it is.  Change can be a wonderful thing, and I encourage you no matter what side of the coin you are on to embrace the changes happening, you don't have to agree with them, you don't have to accept them, but if you can learn to tolerate them I personally believe that things will be better.   For those happy about this decision I am happy too but I also realize that there are many who aren't happy its not my job to make them happy but I can help them become tolerant of the changes happening around them by continuing to love them. 


I'll say this in closing, I personally love everyone,  I don't always agree with the decisions they make in their lives but I am goinna love them anyways. Why?  That is what God told me to do and that is what God does for me. Loves me in spite of my questionable or bad decisions I make. 


John 13:34  "A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another, even as I have loved you, that you also love one another"

Post Partum Visit and Updates

 Today was my 6 week postpartum visit to my OB.   I have grown to love and trust Dr. Gordon.  From the jump start of me seeing her, she always had my best interest in mind and I'll tell ya the woman never gave me any bull shit.  In fact, one of the reasons why I love her so much is that she tells you like it is and is super down to earth.  She will give you her recommendation and let you make your own decisions. 


 We discussed a lot.  For starters my vitals were awesome, and I lost 30lbs!   yeah I was stoked about that.   I also passed my blood sugar test.  This was a real bonus for me, since I thought for sure I'd be a diabetic considering all of the issues I had during pregnancy.   But I passed and all is well.  My blood pressure had also been on a scary increase, and that was also down.  I am healthy and "back to normal"  lol I can hardly say I am normal but this is all great news.

What came with this visit was the discussion of birth control.  I laughed about this, because I've been married for almost 5 years now and have never had this discussion with my OB/GYN before. My whole plan for 4 years was always to try and have a baby.  So it was fun and she gave us many options but also cautioned me that I really needed to let my uterus heal at least for a year and preferably 2.  This made alarm bells go off in my head. Why? Well, the other part of the visit was spent talking about future pregnancies and deliveries that I would have.

I asked if there was ever a chance I'd deliver naturally.   She didn't say yes or no, but she asked me this question and I'll be honest it was something I needed to hear.  "To you what is magical about a vaginal birth?"   
My answer " Honestly,  Nothing other than the fact that I'd be able to do it"

She said "fair enough I totally understand, but I'll be honest with you labor is seriously like the worse flu you've ever had in your life and honestly not all its cracked up to be." 
Basically in her opinion for a patient such as myself  a repeat C section would be the goal,  she said if I went into labor and things were going well, then heck yes its a blessing we are pushing that baby out BUT the odds of that happening are not in my favor. She told me I am always going to be an extremely high risk pregnancy.  (  I knew this )

Statistically  I am going to be a diabetic, and will end up with preecampsia again.   It may not be as bad as it was but yeah.  What sucks about it is that its pregnancy and I am at the mercy of Hormones LOL sooooooooo yeah.  But that also makes me wonder if a second child is really a good idea.  Its my decision but its a really hard one.  If I wait 2 years or even 1. Age is also a facotor in risks too.
2 years puts me at 31 on top of the high risks that I am.  So yeah it was a lot to take in and its a lot to think about.

I am just grateful that I found this practice, and the Drs and Midwives in it. The whole practice saved my life and helped me bring a beautiful healthy and happy baby into this world and I am just blessed.

Oh Yes, Speaking of Baby, She is 6llbs 2 oz and growing by the day. Healthy as can be.
Hubby might have a new job

Things are well with our family.  I am blessed.


 :)