I just read a story from a friend of mine that is hoping and praying to adopt a child. She details her struggle, and I got through it crying.
I lost my baby in October of 2012. At least I am convinced I was pregnant and miscarried super early like early enough for no one to notice. Nothing has ever been confirmed but I am fully convinced that this happened I don't care what tests say some people just know when things happen and I just knew!
What upsets me more is the fact that I am so destressed about this and I went to my OBGYN at the time and expressed my concerns. She was not concerned about me at all. It was all " Your husband blah blah blah" Utter bull shit really. Needless to say, I changed OB/GYNS as soon as I could and after my first appointment with her in 2013 she was like you have Poly cystic ovarian syndrome ( Something that my first OB said " No you don't have it") You aren't ovulating. Let's get this fixed. For months she put me on fertility meds. They started to work and then of course I freaking moved.
Haven't ovulated since the move. So we are heavily considering adopting.
There were times when I thought I was pregnant and all tests were negative its a lot to handle and the emotions are raw for me because I blame the doctor I had for not taking my issue seriously and I am grateful to my second doc that found the issue right away.
I want a child badly. ( We both do) There is a void in my heart and soul that I can't fill with anything else no matter what I do. I will always mourn the death of my child, whether it will ever be confirmed or not. To me it was a loss and a big one. One that I am not getting over and no one can tell me " Oh get over it" Its just not happening. I know there is a baby that was mine in heaven in a better place. I also know that God will bless me in time with a child of my own or that I can adopt. I am being patient but I will ALWAYS Mourn... ALways ...
We Love you Angel baby rest in heaven. Your Mom and Dad . <3 br="">3>